In November of 2005, my urologist said my PSA was too high and, with a history of prostate cancer in the family, he ordered a biopsy which showed cancer cells. Thank God, I had a visitor with me who heard this news over the speaker phone and shared the shock with me. A later X-ray gave us another shock when it showed a bulge on the right kidney. This was a worse shock than the first as I knew that could mean kidney cancer. The Lord has blessed me with many friends who believe in intercessory prayer and that was set in motion. When my dear friend, Jerry White, won his battle with rcc he wrote a book about it. I read the book and thought it might be useful someday. In the shuffle of things I misplaced it. I called Jerry on Friday, January 6, 2006, and what an inspiration that call was. He sent me another copy along with a CD of guided imagery exercises. I immediately learned to do this and it felt like a burden was lifted from my mind and body. I put the exercises at the top of the list of a very demanding time schedule.
On Sunday the sweet and loving congregation of my church began praying for me. One of my former students sent me an email stating that she had seen an emotion on my face that she had never seen before. She said, “You are afraid”. I immediately recognized this as a negative thought and just sent it away with the breath. On Wednesday I awoke with an energy and freedom that I had not felt since the diagnosis in November. Thursday I awoke with the same feeling. Since my eyes and reflexes are not what they used to be, I prayed that on my drive to the BSA Hospital in Amarillo I would not kill someone. I even prayed I would find a space on the crowded parking lot. Sure enough, there was my space, right in front of the entrance. The MRI procedure went well and I left expecting to hear results in 3 days. No more than 5 hours later, my doctor called to say that there was no longer a sign of malignancy and there was no more to do in that area. I asked if there was a rush to begin treating the prostate caocer and he assured me there was no hurry. My PSA is down to 5. I plan to use the wonderful, positive exercise of Guided Imagery set down in Jerry’s book and have more testing done later.
These past few weeks have brought back to mind that God’s creation is so perfectly made that we have the means of healing within our bodies if we can just release that healing power. Was the original mass on the kidney malignant? I suppose I will never know. All I know is that I am healthy now and looking forward to many productive years ahead.
Harold Dean Carson
January 13, 2006